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littlenut
Antiprohibitionist
Joined: 20 May 2008
Posts: 72
Location: Around the corner from McDonalds in the US of A
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I too have seen a difference in my attitude when I smoke. I smoked as a teenager (many years ago) and then quit when I was 20 and got married. Went through a divorce after 12 years of marriage, was a single mom of 2 for 5 years and remarried 15 years ago. I thought I was destined to be an angry and depressed woman. At 40 I was the mom to 2 teenage kids and I hit menopause. I was miserable to say the least. I was unable to take hormones due to bad mammograms (more than most of you want to know, I realize) and I was a mess. Could not sleep, think, make decisions and I just wanted my life back before menopause. I cried everyday for what I thought I was missing in my life. Went to the doctor weekly begging for some relief. Needless to say menopause hit me hard. At the same time, I discovered that my kids were using marijuana and I thought, what the hell, it can't hurt for me to see if I can get some relief. About 7 years ago, I shared my desire to try marijuana with my husband, and he was ready to try anything by this point !! You know the old "if mamma ain't happy - ain't nobody happy" routine !! We went camping one weekend and he taught me how to get high again. My husband has been around the block a time or 2, so this was not anything new to him. Well, needless to say, I fell in love with this little plant. I was happy, felt content with life, was not angry, felt peaceful and at ease with most everyone in my world. I felt like I was "normal" after all these years of being "abnormal". During the 1st year I only would get high away from the house and I did not let my kids know what was going on until they were both 18 and one weekend we asked them to go to the lake with us, where we keep our camper and that evening around the campfire, I shared with them what I was doing and the kids and I got high together. My husband does not like it so he doesn't smoke. The kids and I got high together about once a month at home or camper and I have to say that they are some of my better memories of my kids as adults. I learned so much from them as they are more open with their feeling and desires when they are high. As I guess we all do. We had some great talks and great laughs. Then we got busted at home and both of them have gone on to get DUI's because they drank in place of marijuana due to probation drug testing. We don't keep anything here at home anymore because of probation and neither of my kids smoke anymore, but they both still drink alot. 
In mid-January of this year, I received a call from my mom in Texas (I am in PA) saying she was very ill and I needed to get there the next day. Of course, I went empty handed and after 21 days away from everyone I knew except my Mom, who was in the hospital the whole time, I was ready to loose my mind. I was very stressed anyway with my mom being ill and I was homesick and I went right back to where I was 10 years ago. Angry, depressed, cried every day, couldn't sleep. My first night back home was the BEST !! Thanks be to God for this little plant as I can actually for the first time in my life, overlook all the things that used to make me so angry at my Mom. She is back home living in PA for the 1st time in 30 years and is driving my brother and I nuts, except I am handling it much better than my brother. He keeps asking me why she is not driving me up a wall as he is drinking another beer to keep his stress level managable around her. But he looks down at me because what I do is illegal and what he does is legal. Go figure !!! |
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psykl0n
Activist
Joined: 21 May 2008
Posts: 208
Location: BACOIMA!!!
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| littlenut, what county in PA do you live in? i'm from Lancaster. |
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littlenut
Antiprohibitionist
Joined: 20 May 2008
Posts: 72
Location: Around the corner from McDonalds in the US of A
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I am close to you in Franklin County. My niece went to Millersville for 4 years and I used to come to Lancaster County quite often antiquing, but the price of gas keeps me closer to home now. Franklin is a very conserative county as I am sure Lancaster is. Quite an uphill battle here, but getting my plugs in where I can. My local newspaper deletes any reference I make to the WOD but allows people to call me criminal, dopehead and potsmoker, etc., without any consequences whatsoever. Good thing I have a sense of humor about "little" things like that.
Nice to know I have a comrade close !!
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Penance
Civil Libertarian
Joined: 08 Mar 2008
Posts: 142
Location: Texas
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| Brute4291 wrote: | One thing pot has done for me is show me the good in things. Soemthing as simply as being alive or interacting with someone else.
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same, i love being high and just watching the sun go down. it's so peacefull.
Let the vibes blow like the ocean breeze
Mamma always told me there’d be days like these
Keep your head right, just do as you please
Don't ever interfere with an evil man’s schemes
Keep your heart pure, conceive your own dreams
Respect your fellow man, the earth with the trees
The air that we breathe and the highest mountain peak
Bring truth from your soul to your mouth when you speak
No need to get loud .. messin with others, stressin’ your brother, it’s time to uncover
Time to choose another path you see
Cause the road most traveled’s negativity
Put your fist down (fist down), throw your hands in the air
Respect yourself, be somebody who cares
Don’t let life get you down, don’t feel abused
Keep a positive view unto yourself be true |
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dawsonspaw
anonymouse tipster
Joined: 11 Apr 2007
Posts: 398
Location: Somewhere in the temporal space inside my mind
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| Posted: Mon Jun 02, 2008 8:23 pm Post subject: |
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Awesome poem,did you pen it?  |
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Penance
Civil Libertarian
Joined: 08 Mar 2008
Posts: 142
Location: Texas
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| Posted: Mon Jun 02, 2008 8:26 pm Post subject: |
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| dawsonspaw wrote: | | Awesome poem,did you pen it? |
i wish, i have absolutely no writing talent. it's Johnny ricter's verse in "Positive vibes" |
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